Lately, I've been going to bed feeling confused but tonight, it's a different matter.
Tonight, I am certain. Certain of my feelings, my thoughts, everything.
From this day onwards, I shall no longer compromise my own happiness for something that I'm not sure of anymore. Figured that I shouldn't settle for less when I know that I deserve something more.
I want to stop feeling sorry for myself, to stop getting these emotional breakdowns which occurs ever so often because I am honestly just sick and tired of it. What's the good in that anyway?
I know what I want now and I'm going to go towards that direction. There'll be no U-turns or detours, but just a straight path to my destination. Even if there are hurdles or should I trip along the way, I am going to overcome them, pick myself up and continue walking.
It might take a month, a year or two, but no matter how long the journey might take, I know that someday, I will get there. Someday, I will find someone who will make me feel like I am the luckiest girl on Earth, someone who gives me adequate personal space, someone who doesn't make me feel like I'm just his back-up plan, someone who's actually worth it all.
Wow to be honest, I've never been this sure in a very long time. It makes me glad and definitely thankful that I've finally seen "the light". It's a pity though that I took a such a long time to realise it. Hmm but tonight, I am content because for once, I can finally turn in with a clear heart. Goodnight, everyone :)